you want a narrative? well who told you that i was an open book?

there are more important things than vanity
there are more important things than my own narcissitic values.
the world around me is spinning so fast.
maybe i should forget myself for a little while.
today, i learned that when people come up against things that are different and/or out of the norm, people get afraid----
become fearful of these new and exciting things
And I thought, about how akward it is, sometimes, when I enter different social circles...and am not well received---
and it isn't b… Continue

there are more important things than vanity
there are more important things that my own narcissitic values.
the world around me is spinning so fast.
maybe i should forget myself for a little while.
today, i learned that when people come up against things that are different and/or out of the norm, people get afraid----
become fearful of these new and exciting things
And I thought, about how akward it is, sometimes, when I enter different social circles...and am not well received---
and it isn't b… Continue

I know that what we do is a temporary fix
the problem is still looming.
But all our temporary highs---short lived escapades---fleeting orgasms and now,
the clearing smoke ceases to fulfill our
dying compulisions.

Brainless,
Gutless and Heartless we trek forward.
Guilt and shame have been severed with a dull blade.

Painlessly, we trek forward.
Each sunrise exposes the weariness our eyes----
the cover of nightfall makes us invisible
and anonymous.

Today,
my father and I witnessed a car accident occur.

A white pickup truck hits a white Scion and sends it into a spin, into a snowbank. The front left bumper of the white pickup is falling off into… Continue

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I am on fire with rage.
On a 40 degree day, I storm unhindered...to the library.
This October gale force gust pushes against me so hard i can barely walk.
I smile at it.
It is just as defiant as me.

I'm going in to see one of my professors. His office hours are from 9:30-10:30.
I'm there at 9.
He comes in with another student. Takes him first.
I don't mind it.
I FUCKING MIND IT, though when they take 30 minutes blathering… Continue

Kaia Niambi Finn
AFRSTY 2G2
October 10, 2008
Critical Reaction Paper #3


The Psychology of Freedom:
Skins and Masks of the Wretched of the Earth

Many Caribbean literary figureheads of the 20th century were concerned with easily observable socio-economic and cultural struggles. However, the most important post-colonial struggle is the covert battle between the colonizer and the colonized on the… Continue

9-26-08
Friday.

Today, there is a humid rain.
I am standing on the platform. The yellow hazard line is the brightest thing outside. I wish I was the only one on the platform. In my mind, I am.
It's easy to imagine that there are no other people here. No businesswomen, chatting conspicuously in small groups---with jaded eyes and red lipstick. No, idle conversations about the 40 pounds you lost last night. No. B.C. highschool boys with their khaki pants and book bags.
None of that.
And it is so q… Continue

9/21/08
I'm on my way to new york.
with my family.
well, we haven't left the house yet, but we're about to go.
shopping, i guess.
i'm gonna try and save as much of my cash as possible.
colors i'm lookin' for: oranges...
GQ might pop in and see us during our excursion...
i wish i had a camera---i talked myself out of buying one, earlier this year...oh well.
i'm tired.


I'm on my way to Manhattan
NYC is a congested place. Outside atop highway high rise, looking in.
Maybe I'd at least like to live… Continue

This is something I've been holding out on for a couple of weeks;]





Text Translation:
7-13-08
My dad said to me a few minutes ago, "There are forces that keep you down----that keep you from rising."

I didn't know whether he was speaking physically or spiritually. He was… Continue

Text Translation:
8-14-08

i knew my sarcasm would get me in trouble one of these days. And...
Yesterday was the day.

Sadly, i'd become comfortable with my pessimistic ways of coping and justifying negative things that happen. And it was funny, because yesterday morning, i was… Continue

I know I'm a little late, posting this...
but on August 2nd, My love, GQ, and I I had the once in a lifetime opportunity (for my wallet) to seats at a Coldplay show in Hartford, CT. :)




First pic of the ride:

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Everyone is afraid.

If they claim they aren't,
they have been or will be.

Perhaps, fear is taught-----you know, conditioned.
learned. Some think it's natural.
All I know is that fear exists. Or does it?
I've heard that fear and faith are opposites.

Gerrard's mom thinks that Chuckie, the paranoid, fear-prone character from show 'Rugrats' was the bravest character because he had so much fear to overcome....COURAGE.

Fear can make you cautious----overly cautious....
paranoid. it can also prevent… Continue

Why are terrible stories always the most "newsworthy?" and good news is oftentimes overlooked?
(do… Continue

When people mention "the world",
what do they mean?
The earth and the world are two different things...


It was once suggested to me that it's fine to depict the world as it is,
but to also offer solutions to the problems.
Now that's a challenge...

Starting with one thing at a time...

There's a cliche...and it goes "There are two sides to every story."

In this world, I feel like I am on the second side of the story.

If the two sides are Truth and Lies; Good and Evil, etc.

I a… Continue

Picture Source: http://loveacceptforgive.wordpress.com/2007/03/31/jesus-offended-by-chocolate/


Question: Why does the architecture of Stop and Shop resemble a house?

Why does the architecture of Stop and Shop resemble a house?

We've rea… Continue

A childish whim of mine. I know.
My fantasy; to meet a real soldier. And talk honestly about war.
And I'd met many. More than I thought I would.

Kerron Brown, a waiter at Sassafras was in the navy. He had some mental issues....(who doesn't, though?)...no...he had some mental issues. I asked him if he'd ever killed anyone. He said it was from afar....and that if he did, he wouldn't know… Continue

Retail: The mark of the beast.

Tales from the Crypt:

Today at work, I was clockin----designing and working on a display for the earrings and bracelets---my beloved jewels---For sure, I knew that my display would increase sales no doubt---after all, that was the point of black plastic, faux crystal, silver bangles with shell inlays, beaded necklaces with multicolored strands o… Continue

Finally finished!
For the entire month of May, I've been working on this commissioned piece, from conception to sale.
My clients are very pleased :)
It feels really great to touch someone's heart the way that this piece did.
Ready to tackle the month of June!

She wished Forest Gump had never said that.
Had never said, in that mildly retarded kind of way, that "Life is like a box of chocolates."
No. It really freaking wasn't. Who the hell wakes up and says, "Ya know, Joe...I wanna be a truffle today." No.


She couldn't believe that the person at the bus stop had asked for her name.
"Xochiquetzal," She replied, afte… Continue